JUST THOUGHTS

It's 10:36 on a Thursday night, and I'm feeling like I need to make an effort to write something, and it's rare that I actually feel like posting, so this is a good opportunity to talk shit for a while. As I slightly touched on in my last post, things have been a bit weird lately, and I'm not usually one to write about my feelings. But as I also said in that post, I'm trying to be more open with you, so this is basically the run down if everything going on in my head right now:

I'm scared about getting older, not old old, but old enough to have the kinds of responsibilities you never thought you'd have to have. I'm at college now, I work so I can buy the meaningless things that I want (clothes, jewellery, etc). I have a roof over my head free of cost, and I have food on my plate every night. But what happens after that? Bills? Taxes? All the stuff that adults are probably used to, that's the shit that freaks me out the most. They're the kinds of thoughts that wake me up in the middle of the night in a sweat, the feeling comes on as sudden as putting my head under a cold tap.

Getting older is a weird thing. I thought that once I reached certain milestones I'd feel older, or like I'd reached a rite-of-passage. But the days and nights just float by, I don't feel much different to how I felt maybe a year ago. I mean, sure a lot has changed but everything just seems to happen at a painfully slow pace. I mean, half of the time I feel like the embodiment of a Coppola film, an emotional, angst filled teenager.

I don't know how many of you still read this blog, but if you're still here - thank you. Not too many people read blogs these days. I get it though, instagram, snapchat, facebook they're all more digestible sources to find content. Reading a blog takes time and effort. I'm not ready to let mine go just yet, it's the longest relationship I've had with anything, almost a year. I'm a teenager with little to no commitment to anyone or anything, so this little URL that I nurture - it really means a lot to me.

'til next time, over and out

s x

I ALWAYS COME BACK

So, for a few months I've been wondering what to say.

In the space of these past few months my ideals as a teenager have differed, my priorities have shifted drastically. I've learned things that will most likely stay with me for a lifetime, others not. I'm a teenager with a palette of colour-emotions, mustard-yellow happiness, cool-grey loneliness, scarlet-red love, midnight-blue sadness. That's the awkward thing about being a teenager, you feel everything, vivid and weird emotional moments that you can't even begin to explain or process. Some days you feel overwhelmed with feelings that are too hard to cope with, other days you feel like you're just another human drifting along with time and space.

I'm trying to change this blog ~ and make it a reflection of me. My previous posts never really let anyone in, I put up a wall between myself and you. For reasons like, not knowing how to express myself, not wanting to ramble about myself/life etc, and being a introverted and shy person in general. Because sometimes it's hard finding a voice whether it's online, or in real life situations (scary, I know). 

Growing up and finding that voice is definitely a challenge. Here are a few things I have come to discover by myself, that I wish someone had told me:

1. BE YOURSELF

I know it sounds simple and cliché, and I might sound 100% lame when I say this, but be yourself! Honestly there is nothing refreshing than feeling comfortable with you are. It's all good and well to put on a bravado, because truthfully, some of us guys and gals need to appear a little more confident in certain situations. But you shouldn't feel you have to change or appear different for other peoples benefit. After high school the realisations would have started to set in, going into the 'real world' there are no cliques or groups, you're out there on your own. You will undoubtedly have more important things to worry about in life than fitting in, because that's not what it's about, even if it feels like it right now.

I know it's hard trying to fit in with different cliques and groups at high school, and it's the absolute WORST when you don't feel like you fit in. But you know what, there are over 7 billion people on this planet, and none of them are you! Well that's radical!? You're worth more than you know.

2. YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER/FRIEND SHOULD NOT MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH/SHITTY
The point of relationships and friendships are to make the other person feel happy and good about themselves. If you have put effort into the relationship on a daily basis, and the person doesn't make you happy or worthy of them, DITCH EM'. Because quite frankly, you don't need/deserve to deal with that b.s. You have the power to cut of a toxic relationship or friendship, you don't have to stay if the person is putting down or making you feel shit. Especially is the person is inflicting any pain on you at all. Because you have the right to be happy, and the people you surround yourself with should be the ones that lift you up, not bring you down.

3. LOSS IS INEVITABLE 

It's always going to happen - just like your shoes are going to wear thin, and the rain is going to fall. When you're a teenager you feel every emotion under the sun, sometimes losing someone can feel like the whole world is coming to a slow and bitter end. It's a scary thing realising that those memories you've shared with someone special have started to become those - just memories. Just know that feeling this way, it's okay, we all have different strategies for dealing with loss. Some of us don't want to curl up in a ball with a carton of ice cream, but not everyone is ready to throw themselves on the rebound train instantly. Just remember that you don't have to be ready to get on with it immediately, pain is pain, and relationships and friendships are about finding what you need/deserve. Sometimes you need to experience the tail-end of relationships to see the faults and learn from them. This does NOT mean that any relationship was a waste of time, if you were treated badly - at least you now know that you don't deserve that kind of crap. 

4. INSECURITY IS A PRISON AND YOU'RE BETTER THAN THAT

Some of the the most talented and beautiful people I have met, and whom I'd considered flawless aesthetically and intellectually have also turned out to be the same people who have all gone through patches of insecurity. Looking at them though my eyes, I could not see how this was even possible. Calling yourself names, and putting yourself down can really affect your confidence. Filling your head up with these thoughts can do you nothing but harm, give yourself a break, no one is perfect.

Envision telling your eight-year-old self, innocent and thrilled about life, that they are ugly, fat, and worth nothing. How could you possibly say this to a eight-year-old, and watch them cry inconsolably. It's the same thing, except you are older and putting yourself down more. Insecurity is a prison, but you choose whether you want to commit the crime.

5. GET RID OF MEAN AND NEGATIVE PEOPLE

If there's anything I've learned it's that attracting negative people can become a vicious and repetitive cycle. When you're giving and loving person, people can take advantage of that aspect of you, and cling onto your light, dragging you down into the darkness with them. When people feel hurt or sad they can try to transfer their pain onto others, and tend to rely on everyone else for happiness. But you shouldn't have to find happiness in others, happiness should be found in you. Choosing to be patient and nice is one thing, but putting yourself in a repetitive and miserable cycle is another. The best thing you can do is surround yourself with confident and motivated people, who know where they are going. Sometimes the most beneficial solution for yourself is to simply cut a person who makes you feel shit out of your life. It's your right to do this - it doesn't mean you lack loving them any less, you just shouldn't have to feel destroyed in the process of the friendship.

6. VALUE TIME

Value everyone else's time, value your own time, and you should not be made to feel like you are not worthy of someone else's. Everyone is trying to get somewhere or do something better, but we're usually too consumed in our own lives that we don't stop to help others out. But you know what? We're only on this earth for a little while, so why not try and make someone else's life a little bit better? Things take time, that's one thing I've learned, especially friendships and relationships. If the other person isn't making time for you, how do they expect the relationship to flourish, and how do they expect you to be happy? People should value your time. That means if they're late, they don't give a shit about your time and they think they're worth more and therefore can keep you waiting. Some people will say it's OK to be late. It's not. Some people will say it's just the way they are. Then maybe you need to reevaluate them.

There are a few things I wish someone had told me.

S x

SOON

I'm sorry, I'll be back with something soon.
S x

NZFW DAY 7 & 8

So, on Saturday and Sunday I spent most of the day at NZ Fashion Week, which was real fun! Went to the Fashion Quarterly Presents show, and the Cleo Presents show. Both were real good The Zambesi collection was a definite highlight though, I loved that whole collection. Fashion week this year definitely seemed bigger (and better), also heaps of designer sales upstairs!
Also, the music was really good this year. I can't pick a favourite show (music wise) but the music in the RUBY show was pretty great.
I dressed quite casually, this and this, I was only able to go on the weekend (cos college) which is sad, but at least I didn't have to get too dressed up, with it being the weekend and all.
Anyway I didn't take too many photos cos my camera is being repaired (great timing, I know) and my phone doesn't take the best photos, ugh.

But here are a few:

 Zambesi.

Bonds.

RUBY.

Bonds.

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, things have been kinda chaotic at the moment + i'm such a procrastinator. (side note: i'm supposed be writing a 400 word essay, but i'm procrastinating by writing this) Lol. 

Sarah xx

LONG TIME NO POST

I haven't posted here in a while. It's been a bit over a month, and I've had nothing to say/share with you. Things have been a kind of weird lately, friendships have fallen apart and gotten back together, and my consequences have started showing up to the party. But I don't want you to give up on this blog. It means so much to me, and the fact that you guys check up on this blog every now and then, and you care about my words - it's actually so heart warming.

I've got plenty of things going on at the moment to write about. But I don't like going on about shit no one really needs to hear.

But I'm still here.

xx

HEARTBREAK | PLAYLIST FRIDAY

I like to think that in some ways I have a realistic grasp on life, and that I can share it with you all, and that my little pieces of advice might help someone out. I spend hours editing the crap out of each post so I know what i'm actually going on about. I can't explain my mind, it's tangled and twisted, much like the ideas in it.

If you know me, Sarah, my blog posts are all over the place. But you know what? Humans carry around so many thoughts, emotions, and feelings that it's hard to put into words, let alone know what you're talking about. No matter who you are and what others have been through who you are trying to support, you need to have time for yourself. I know how it feels when someone's gone, and it feels like no one's ever gonna feel this heartbroken. Ever.

Heartbreak is one of the worst feelings in the world, its physically sickening. It feels like someone's cut your heart out of your chest, and decided to stomp on it. But however ~ time heals all wounds, even if it doesn't feel like it at the time. It still leaves scars and memories and reminders of what you once had, but that's okay, they're you. But when you've given all you can possibly give and it's not enough, what else are you supposed to give? 

But let me get one thing straight, you and no other person should make you feel incomplete without them. And you won't feel empty, I know it may sure as hell feel like it and you've given a little piece of yourself away that you know they could break. But YOU are your own person as a whole kidneys, lungs, emotions and all, no one can take that away from you.

Anyway, here is my little 'heartbreak playlist'. I tried to keep the sad melancholy songs to a minimum :)

All you had to do was stay - Taylor Swift

Take a chance on me - Abba

Dancing on my own - Robyn 

Jar of hearts - Christina Perri

Love me anyway - Ginny Blackmore

Since you been gone - Kelly Clarkson

Heartbreak dream - Betty Who

You (ha ha ha) - Charli XCX

Cry me a river - Justin Timberlake

Why don't you love me - Beyonce

Living for love - Madonna

The one that got away - Katy Perry

Turning tables - Adele

Too little too late - Jojo








From,
Sarah xx

HIGHS AND LOWS

Moira from Clyne / Photo: James K Lowe / Styling: Katherine Lowe

Highs:

1. Rose Matafeo's comedy show 'Finally Dead' AMAZING! I loved the set, the outfits, oooh and Paul Williams! I could go on about this for ages but i'm going to stop there.

2. I don't know what it is about the photo on the left, (above) but I love it so much.

3.  I started watching Ted Talks (which are really interesting), and also developed my love my Tavi Gevinson - she's an angel. 

4.  Lorde just got back to NZ from London which means... she's one step closer to finishing her album, and I cannot be more excited about it!

Lows:

1. I'm fourteen days into Junk Free June. I've had no refined sugar, and I feel shit. :'(

2. Today I had a SERIOUS craving for cookies, and I had the stuff to make them, so I decided to make them (sugar-free). The first batch I made, burned. The second lot, I put too many on the tray and they stuck together and covered the whole tray (also dripped all over my oven).Then I ran out of flour, so now i'm hungry, grumpy and crying, and come to the conclusion I can't bake. 

3.  Acne. I'm pretty sure I don't need to explain myself.

Sarah x

STEVIE

Throughout the course of your life, you meet endless amounts of people. They come and go, leaving footprints on your heart. But if their footprints start to fade after a while, know that it wasn't because they didn't love you, or your friendship wasn't real. Circumstances change, people change, and thats okay.

But only a few of them leave the heaviest and most prominent footprints. The ones that make an impact on your life, and the ones that feel genuine. The footprints you know you can trust the most, and after a while you know you can depend on them for anything. The ones that know you inside out, and accept you for who you are.

My friend Stevie, she's one of them. I haven't really talked about her on here before, but she's a person I'd really like to talk about now. Here are some facts about her:

She's the bravest gal i've even known, she's drama-free and doesn't make a fuss over something little. Sometimes I worry that she gives too much love away, that she doesn't have enough left for herself. She's encouraged me to achieve so many things I was to scared to do (including starting this blog). Which I couldn't be able to tell her how thankful I am of that.

If you know me, I, Sarah, hate explaining things. When i'm with Stevie I don't feel like I need to justify my actions, or explain myself. She somehow knows when I need space and how to give it to me, whilst still being there for me. She doesn't shove advice down my throat, but let's me depict these detailed melancholy ideas inside my head, so she too can understand what my starry eyes comprehend.

My favourite thing about this chica is there's never a dull day with her. Whether we're dressing up, dressing down, going out, staying home, it's always different and never boring. She's the kind of person you'd want your child to be, your best friend, your sister, your mum, your boyfriend. She's perfect.

Stevie has this way, she's so gentle but she's fiery when there's something or someone worth standing up for, and she won't take crap from anyone. And she never asks 'what's in it for me'? She'd help anyone regardless of whether she profited from it or not.

Stevie's seen me at my best and my worst, and my weirdest. She's the most genuine person i've ever met. It doesn't mean she's my closest, or my favourite person in the world - because frankly I don't have one. But our friendship doesn't need to be measured, she's someone I can trust and rely on, or just have a heart-to-heart with. There's something about her that never makes me feel tired, even when i've had enough of the world and want to be alone, I can be alone with her. 

I just wanted to acknowledge her goodness in the world. I believe she could change the world in a heartbeat, she makes feel and see the good parts of myself. We've been through a lot together, and she's always been there for me.

So thank you, you're truly an angel.

You'll only find a couple of these people in your lifetime, so make sure you treasure them. 

I love you and I'll see you soon, 

Sarah x x x

HIGHS AND LOWS

Glassons edt. #5 campaign image photo/Darren Ankenman.

Highs: 

1. Last week's long weekend. I did literally nothing.

2. I'm seven days into #junkfreejune and I feel surprisingly okay. (Baring in mind I decided to cut out refined sugar & bread out of my diet instead) Oh, but I will mention I did have a sneaky cookie and coffee combo at Moustache while I was out yesterday. Don't. Tell. Anyone.

3. In two days iv'e cuddled two babies under two weeks old. OMG so cute. I love babies. <3

4. I've written two (by my standards) great posts, but they are more of a rant and there's a fair amount of explicit language. They don't really deserve a place on this blog so I'll post them on my tumblr.

5. Glassons edt #5 range, I think it's their best yet. (I'm eyeing up this and this.)

 Lows:

1. I actually don't have anything to complain about this week... weird, huh.

Love, 

Sarah x 

HIGHS AND LOWS

Long island breakfast 7.3.15 / tumblr

Highs:

- Four day weekend!

- Ruby High-Winter collection - so very, very beautiful.

- Tomorrow I start Junk Free June. So today in my last ditch attempt to fulfil my unhealthy food desires, we had one hell of a lunch. (Including some healthy but ridiculously good charred broccoli)

- Campbell Live finale. I cried. :'(

- POMEGRANATE JUICE!!

Lows:

- I was looking forward to winter - but why SO COLD though?!

- Wait, can you call yourself a blogger if your blog seems to solely consist of 'highs and lows' posts?

- #Tags4likes. Have a sip of water mate.

A pretty ceiling at the theatre on Broadway.

Very true words <3

I love these - but I do not suit culottes. :(

Pretty illuminated hands. <3

Sending winter warmness, 

Sarah x

FIVE REASONS WHY TRAVELLING IS THE GREATEST THING YOU CAN DO

1.  It forces you to make new friends & meet new people:

Environments like school/uni/work can sometimes be hard to make friends in. So it's really great that I can travel somewhere foreign, meet new people & make new friends, and just have a great time in general. I met one of my friends when we were both standing in the same department store in Bangkok, trying to decide whether the Prada bag we were looking at was real or not. Lol.

2. The experiences:

Whether it be feeling jet lagged and sick in an airport lounge, or riding an elephant under the blistering sun. They're all experiences that you'll never get back again. They'll change who you are, and how you see the world. It makes me really love and appreciate where I come from even more.

3.  Learning about other cultures:

The New Zealand culture is quite acquiescent and tame, so it is always intriguing to learn about other cultures. And the best way to do that is to be there, and experience it for yourself! There are so many countries and cultures that need to be explored. I could describe to you the city lights of Bali, but you really have to see it for yourself to capture it's full beauty - Instagram and Tumblr do it no justice.

4. The food:

The best way to learn about a culture is by food. (And who doesn't love to eat?) One thing I regret doing all to often is going for a universal food chain when I should be experiencing the local delicacies. I guess you sometimes want something that resembles home. My advice would be to embrace it fully by dining as the local's do.

5. So you are aware of what's around you:

Being born and raised in one particular place meant growing up I never really knew what was outside my suburb. So travelling has really opened my eyes to the world outside of where I live. Especially because what you see on the news or online could never compare to experiencing something right in front of you.

Love,

Sarah x

HIGHS AND LOWS

The dungaree club / Photo: James K Lowe / Found on tumblr 

Highs:

- I'm headed over to Sydney soon (hopefully). To visit my brother, and buy shit loads of Muji linen! I've been eyeing this set up for a while now.

- I've started listening to Frank Ocean. I'd never really ventured into that locale of music before. Amazing. Fave songs: thinking 'bout you, swim good.

- The Lonely Hearts sale at Welcome Eatery yesterday. Apart from the fact that there was SO many people, making it slightly stressful. There was way more sale stock than I imagined, and I probably bought more than I should have - but oh well.

Lows:

- No Muji stores in New Zealand.  :'(

- On saturday I watched 'That Sugar Film'. Today I had an apple for breakfast - because i'm too scared to eat anything else. So that's how my day is going so far.

- When someone owes you money, but when you see them they don't mention it. So you feel like the bad guy bringing it up.

S xx 

100 THINGS TO BE HAPPY ABOUT

Some cute plants i pass everyday on the way home.

These little things won't fix your problems, if you're having a bad day. But hopefully they'll create little moments where your dimples show, or give you a little giggle. Life is about those little moments - no one can feel happy all of the time.

1) Having a long chat to a friend you haven't had one with in ages.

2) Falling asleep to the sound of rain on the roof.

3) NO bra.

4) Movie nights with friends.

5) Laughing so hard your ribs start to hurt.

6) Helping someone out.

7) Finding money.

8) Hard work paying off.

9) When your pet decides to be affectionate.

10) Spoiling someone.

11) Receiving/giving flowers.

12) Walks in the forest.

13) Road trips.

14) Baby animals.

15) Sitting by the fire in winter.

16) Summer fruits.

17) Making someone laugh.

18) Having a deep conversation with someone you didn't know you could have one with.

19) The feeling of slipping into your sheets with freshly shaven legs.

20) Music.

21) Losing weight.

22) Life in general.

23) Re-watching a movie and understanding parts you previously didn't.

24) Polaroid cameras.

25) Tumblr.

26) Finding new spots you love.

27) Not taking yourself to seriously.

28) Hot showers.

29) Feeling good about yourself.

30) Swimming under waterfalls.

31) Letters.

32) Feeling confident.

33) Chunky scarves in winter.

34) Finding something you enjoy.

35) Compliments.

36) You.

37) Making someone feel special.

38) Herb gardens.

39) Having a tidy room.

40) Emojis.

41) Finishing an assignment.

42) Baking.

43) Cooking your favourite food.

44) Hotels.

45) Exploring new places.

46) Reading old diary's.

47) Finding a pretty shell on the beach.

48) Rugging up in winter.

49) Winter.

50) Being the only ones in the cinema.

51) Disney movies.

52) Shopping.

53) Writing poems.

54) Sleeping in.

55) Playing with babies.

56) Watching children learn how to talk.

57) Reading short stories.

58) Feeling a sense of direction.

59) Birthdays.

60) New jewellery.

61) Getting dressed up.

62) Taking a good picture.

63) Black and white photo's.

64) Kittens.

65) Succulents.

66) Stepping on crunchy autumn leaves.

67) Doing your eyeliner to the best of your ability.

68) Children giving you flowers - and little notes attached.

69) Feeling like you're on top of your work load.

70) Driving around the city at night.

71) Cuddles with babies.

72) Spa's.

73) Aeroplanes.

74) Travelling.

75) Shoe collections.

76) Being in an airport - and the weird excited/nervous/panicky feeling you get.

77) Forehead kisses.

78) Smashing plates.

79) Bonfires on the beach.

80) Long phone calls.

81) Friends trusting you enough to confide in you.

82) Someone keeping your secret.

83) Feeling creative/artsy.

84) Alexa Chung - and all her beauty.

85) A great concert.

86) Music festivals.

87) Instagram.

88) New bedding.

89) Chunky sweaters.

90) New shoes.

91) Catching up with a friend you haven't seen in ages.

92) Being on a boat.

93) Long hair.

94) New lingerie.

95) Feeling special.

96) Rings.

97) Cacti

98) Lorde

99) Having someone to lean on.

100) Arranging flowers.

x

HIGHS AND LOWS

Maddy Budd / Photo: Evan Tetreault  

Highs:

- THIS!

- I'm 16 days away from cutting packaged food out of my diet for The Cancer Society's Junk Free June. Feel free to get in on that action. Or you know, watch from a distance laughing, when i'm grumpy and starving. 

- I don't cook that often but on thursday I made these amazing sesame bagels with Marmite & Castello on top, and grilled them in the oven. It doesn't sound like much but man it was good. (I was possibly trying to rip off the ones they make at Best Ugly Bagels)

- Going through my Thailand journal - from my trip last year. (I might post a few entries?)

- This. I don't know whether it is a high or a low, but be prepared to waste a few minutes of your life on it.

Lows:

- When i'm actually sick, and I bring out the cough lozenges in class. Everyone swoons.

- I haven't had Hulucat in over two weeks. I feel kinda empty.

- Acne. Um excuse me. WHYYY!



sssustenance / Tumblr


Alexa Chung / Tumblr


Vsanders / Tumblr


Kinfolk / Tumblr


Zara Pfeifer / Tumblr


Zara Pfeifer / Tumblr


The morning after / Malibu December 2013 / Tumblr


Marie Everth @ Clyne / Tumblr

X

HIGHS AND LOWS

Today at the winter gardens.

Highs:

- Meeting Karissa Pukas at the Benefit meet up, oh my god. She's SO lovely.

- Today (for mothers day) we went to Odettes - which mum thoroughly enjoyed. Also Storm and India and La Femme Fleur were set up out the front - so she got a beautiful bouquet, and a seriously good tea fix.

- Walking around the winter gardens today, and having More Like Drake stuck in my head, then remembering it's where Paul Williams shot it. Also then looking like a dick, having a little giggle to myself.

Lows:

- I somehow have managed to shift the bones in my thumb, and cause some quite painful tissue damage. So yeah.

- Trying to cook with sixteen kids under the age of six at once. It's SO hard, especially with blenders and curious fingers involved. I know someone who does it full time, it must be so mentally draining.

Sarah x

FIVE TIPS FOR SUCCESSFUL STUDY

Ashleigh Cummings / Puberty Blues 


1) Be organised.

Start early. Keep your notes organised into different classes in chronological order. So you know where everything is for easy access. Even get all Legally Blonde and colour code that shit. It sounds like a bit of a mission, but you will be very thankful at exam time.


2) Keep hydrated.

Pretty self-explanatory. A hydrated body will be able to concentrate, and preform better. I try and get through a decent sized bottle every 1-2 hours.


3) Write it out as if you are explaining it to someone else.

Its the best way to understand and memorise things.


4) Snacks.

Study is a little boring, so make it more exciting with some yummy snacks. My favourite thing to snack on is a bag of mixed nuts - the great thing about that is one bag lasts 3-4 study sessions.


5) Music.

I find that most music will distract me from studying. So instead I listen to the instrumentals of songs. At the moment I'm listening to 'Pure Heroine' and it's the best! There's something about listening to music without the words that's really compelling - also less distracting.

From Sarah x

HIGHS AND LOWS

Jarryd James / do you remember 

Highs:

- Kath Maddy and Lani on the cover of Viva. Wooo. Such a great article.

- Mandarin season.

- Jarryd James' new single do you remember. fucking amazing.

- As I may (or may not?) have mentioned I'm doing Junk Free June which is basically a cancer initiative, in which you cut out junk food (of your choice) for a month, and you get sponsored/raise money for cancer. I was going to cut takeways out of my diet, but people are never going to want to sponsor that because thats to easy. So instead I'm not going to eat out for a month, that includes breakfast/lunch/dinner/snacks/drinks. So pretty much not buying anything unless it comes from a supermarket.

Lows:

- If you haven't already read this - please take the time to do so. It's basically about the making of Kim Dotcom's album 'Good times', and in's and out's of what those poor engineers had to deal with. It's utterly ridiculous. Interesting read though.

- Forever sick.

Sarah x

FIVE THINGS I WANT TO BUY

1. AS Colour - Madison short.

I actually have no winter pyjama's because a.) I go insane wearing long pants to bed, I somehow manage to wake myself up in the middle of the night all tangled up. And b.) I have better (more exciting) things to spend my money on. So shorts are where its at for me, and these look comfy/amazing. (Also there are PJ pants in that same style if your unlike me and can handle them)

2. Lonely Hearts - Dita swimsuit.

I'm always hesitant when buying togs coming into autumn/winter, but I've realised I actually use them the same amount as I would in summer. So that makes me feel less guilty buying them in deep winter. And these are worth buying in any season <3

3. Urban Outfitters  - Locust Speckled Jersey duvet cover.

The duvet set I currently own at the moment is a Mason Dior one, apart from a little sun fading it's held up quite nicely. I bought it a little over a year ago, and still love it as much as I did at the start. But I'm in need of a new one, and UO do the best and most beautiful ones.

4. Meadowlark - mini Protea ring.

I own quite a few Meadowlark pieces, none with stones. But I have to say this is probably my favourite piece at the moment. It is the perfect size, the stone sits about 1 centimetre above my finger, but It's not big enough to be a statement (they do come in a cocktail size though) Totally wearable any time of day. I'd like it in rose gold with a smoky quartz stone sized to fit my index finger please, size N (I think) incase anyone was wondering.

5. Nike - Air Max Thea.

Because their amazing and I would never take them off. Ever. I'd sleep in them in my new UO bedding of course and wear them with everything. Including those AS Colour shorts.

Sarah x

HIGHS AND LOWS

Kizzie / 62 Models / by James K Lowe. 

Highs:

- I just watched a cool little web series called $1 Reserve it's about the connections we make with strangers when buying and selling on Trade Me. Defiantly worth checking out! 

- Broccoli from Taiko in Kingsland. Nothing better.

- Ella's speech at the Taite. Oh my god, she's so awesome.

Lows:

- when someone drinks out of your water bottle, and you feel like you can't drink out of it anymore. 

- I ordered a pair of shorts online for my birthday (it's autumn, I'm crazy, I know), and received an email from the company (which I thought was a standard confirmation), I read it a week later, but explained in it that they had sold out. (And they still haven't refunded me?!)
+ I really wanted them cos Katherine Lowe has a pair ;(

Sarah x

FIVE THINGS MY MOTHER TAUGHT ME

Irving Penn.


1. ALWAYS wash off your makeup before bed:

 Even if you roll in at 2 am, and collapse onto your bed. A quick once over with a wet wipe will do the trick. It'll prevent that huge zit in the middle of your face the next day, and panda eyes in the morning really aren't that pretty. 

2. Dress to your body not the trends:

9 year old me hated this. All I ever wanted to wear was these super high (I'm talking under the boob high) waisted denim shorts. Although to my delight, they made my legs look super long, but they would eliminate all evidence that I had a back/chest/body. I'd basically look like a chest with legs. It's great to buy a few pieces each season that are 'on trend', but she's taught me to invest in pieces that I know fit and flatter my body well. 

3. You can never have too many white t-shirts and black pants:

Anyone who knows my mum knows that this needs no explanation. More often than not it's her uniform. Nothing looks more polished and put together than a great pair of black jeans and crisp white top. 

4. Be independent:

Girls should be happy with OR without someone cos #whoruntheworld (girls). Somehow mum has taught me the value of independence, and to avoid relying on others where possible. She has taught me to take responsibility for my mistakes, and to work hard for what I want. 

5. Appreciate old music: 

It might not speak to my teenage soul. But the music from the 60's, 70's, and 80's had a relevant meaning to those who were listening to it. They could relate to it, and I can't say that I can relate to any song in the top 40 at the moment. They're all about drinking, drugs, partying, love, etc. So mum has taught me to appreciate the music from that era.

Sarah x

FIVE ACTUAL GOALS I HAVE FOR 2015

Friend goals:

Quality over quantity with everything but with friends especially. Everyone should have those friends that they can be their complete selves around. The ones that give honest advice about everything including, boys, that dress you want to buy, and if that's the right filter/caption for your gram. And bonus if they don't mind the fact your fascination with lorde runs deeper than you will ever let on.

Life goals:

Be chill. I'm the kind of person who needs a plan for everything, and if I'm honest most things stress me out (especially anything to do who decision making). My aim is to stop sweating the small stuff, and know that everything works out as its supposed to.
- Find a hobby that doesn't include shopping, watching youtube videos, or someone else.
- Also, more fitness. Obvi.

Money goals:

When it comes to money and spending I'm THE worst so this is forever a goal of mine. Spend less, save more. The usual. But I feel like if I have it in writing I might try harder? Lol, probably not.

Travel goals:

Do more dope shit. It could be some extravagant European excursion, mid-winter getaway somewhere tropical. Or head up to the Mermaid Pools in Matapouri, honestly its probably one of the most calming places in New Zealand. Don't get me wrong I love Auckland, but I love leaving it more. Having trips planned gives you something to look forward to, you can leave the stresses of school/uni/work/life and come back all inspired and motivated.


Blog goals:

Advertise! I need to use different forms social media as a platform for my blog. I don't really like the idea of self promotion, but I think I can do it in a way that is interesting and cool to people my age. And also to post on a regular basis (I've been slacking off lately).

Mermaid pools, Matapouri <3

Sarah x

HIGHS AND LOWS

Highs and lows for this week.
Not on time :(

Highs:

- Auckland Topshop store opening on Queen street. I wasn't one of those crazy dedicated people waiting since the night before, but it was VERY exciting!

- Ponsonby market sale. Pretty sure I was in heaven. <3

- Ruby sale. Ah so many pretty things! I really want this
 
- Auckland Viaduct Harbour flower market. Beautiful, cheap, and organic flowers! (They make for some pretty sweet instagram pics!)

- I'm going away this weekend (for the first time in forever) nowhere too spectacular. We are going on a road trip to Ohinewai, Tokoroa, and then Rotorua. (I'll write a blog post on it)

- Not sure whether this this goes in highs or lows, but the other day I went into a store and tried on some Birkenstocks, for the hell of it. In my opinion they are quite possibly uglier than Crocs (which is saying something), but as soon as I put them on, I was quickly persuaded, honestly they are the comfiest shoes I have ever tried. Now I am seriously considering buying a pair.

Lows:

- Spent about $30.00 on Hulucat this week. Oh shit.

- Public speaking. I'm physically incapable of it.

- The whole Yaya Club thing, its just one big disgusting racist mess.

- Strong scented candles. They give me a headache, and make me feel sick. (Just got given three.)


Viaduct flower market.


Sarah x

HIGHS AND LOWS

Highs and lows for last week.

Highs:

- Mr Zhou's Dumplings. Amazing. (Q) Is it bad that that I ate there twice last week?
(A) probably.

- Lonely Hearts, Mon Dieu range. I've already bought two pieces from that line. <3

- Booking hotels, always fun. 

- Maddy Budd on the cover of nzhviva, woooo!

Lows:

- "On fleek", not sold.

- Apple chargers. ALWAYS breaking, I need to replace them at least every two months.

- Algebra. Nope. Can't do it.

- Still sad James K Lowe ended his blog :(

Lonely Hearts// Mon Dieu crew sweater.

Sarah x

INSPIRATION

Katherine Lowe// At the Auckland Topshop media preview.

Chelsea Jade// Sky and ocean.

Dreamy winter pullover in grey marle// Acne Studios. 

Sleepwear// Lonely Hearts.

Kelly Rowland, Lorde, Christine And The Queens// At fashion week in Paris.

Lonely Hearts// Flagship store Ponsonby.

Bali// Take me with you?




My tea set-up// The Garden Shed.




Dreamy boudoir// Tumblr bedrooms.



Sarah x